why "can" i feel anything from anyone other than you

my mood has more swings than than the mlb.
yes that was hella lame. but its true.
ive been told this so many times by so many people.
and i guess i see it too.



lately ive just been sitting around staring blankly into nothing.
jake calls it out every time. "aaron's pondering life"
our daily quoting of scrubs yes.
but extremely true, yes.
every night i search deep and deep into the web, looking for whatever.
and i guess i do the same in me.
except in the web i at least find things.

what the hell am i talking about.
whatever.
out