leaf

the thoughts occur to me all the time. and im reminded about it everywhere i look. with how close things were its hard to forget. and each day were moving forward. never. never in the same direction. at least not for long. and change is just as certain as clockwork. its textbook. and every time it hits its like a fresh blow to the chest. even for those who know what they want. and harder for those who dont. im constantly walking forward with everyday but id be lying if i never glanced back. lying if i said i dont miss things. but its for certain i dont want them back. time doesnt stop and neither can we. everyone ive been close to before and are now just another face in the crowd. when i look at my writings from each year of my life and each time ive had. im running in place. im not moving. and whether is because i dont know where im going or that im constantly thinking of everything and everyone past and present. i dont want it back. im walking forward. you are all gone now. no rebuilding bridges. no taking boats or swimming.

i really dont know where this came from. its kind of sloppy but fuckitt