fresh feeling

its like when your completely down and you feel so alone, and you hear a song. it may be a song you have never heard of or maybe one youve heard but never cared for until now because you finally understand what it means. and you listen to it over and over. and it makes you feel better, even being the song is sure hell a sad one. it makes you feel like your not alone and someone, somewhere, knows how you feel. its weird how small the world really can be.


when did the rest of my life start. i feel like i missed the train. or actually i jumped on as soon as i could, injected this poison in my blood, and fell off at the moment i really needed it. its not regression, sure as hell not progress. just im watching the world zoom by and i can only really watch. sometimes i feel i have to much to say for someone who doesnt have to much going on. my words arent validated because of that. i dont know.

i hate zodiac signs and all that. but its really weird how dead on they can be. to who i am and how i would react and how a relationship would be with a certain sign.


i want to post something sort of real, but i cant keep it together long enough to post.
hm.

so lately ive been reading into a lot of philosophy.