its kinda funny when you actually see whats at the end of the tunnel. and then you can see yourself even further. seeing some of the problems my brother has(had) and our mutual situation. and i am already bitter towards the world and most people. and everyday something i loved falls off and i hate just a little more. come further in this timeline and i saw this in my dad today. i really dont want to end up like that. were on the same boat as in we can see peoples true intentions, and dont trust anyone, but i dont want to be like that. completely pessimistic and bitter. im still open minded to a lot of things, im very pessimistic about life, but optimistic about living, and again i just dont want to end up like that. i need to make some changes. giving my some perspective on my life and just really, life.
why is this killing me so much. why do i want this so much. what the hell happened. i always have, i was just afraid of it. and again, what you want the most to whats best for you.
frick.
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