over it

i dont know if ive ever actually admitted it, but i missed who i was and everything before i turned 19. who i became in highschool and a year following it. priding myself on the destruction of personal morals, responsibility for my own actions and submitting to the "american dream".
now i am honestly disgusted in what i was becoming, what i became. i dont know if im any different, but the face that i realize my own faults, i can overcome myself.